I’ve struggled for a couple of days now on how, or even if, to make this post. I finally realized that if I can’t be forthcoming with my own mental health than nothing I post here is worth a damn. So, here goes…
I recently got hit with a fresh wave of depression. A couple setbacks in my personal life, combined with seeing a few friends struggling, and a lot of awful events in the news all hit me hard at once. That’s not to place blame or guilt, it’s just me being cognizant of my mental health triggers. It took a lot of time and work on myself to even allow that level of emotional vulnerability, so I’d rather take the hit and recognize that I care deeply enough about things to actually be affected by them, instead of being numb and aloof like I was in the past.
It has been a setback though. My blogging and gym routines have suffered and I know I haven’t been my best self to some people around me. Fortunately I am lucky to have an incredible support system, and the friends I have opened up to have been amazing. On top of that I’ve recently gotten amazing news regarding my day job and charity work.
I recently got hit with a fresh wave of depression. A couple setbacks in my personal life, combined with seeing a few friends struggling, and a lot of awful events in the news all hit me hard at once. That’s not to place blame or guilt, it’s just me being cognizant of my mental health triggers. It took a lot of time and work on myself to even allow that level of emotional vulnerability, so I’d rather take the hit and recognize that I care deeply enough about things to actually be affected by them, instead of being numb and aloof like I was in the past.
It has been a setback though. My blogging and gym routines have suffered and I know I haven’t been my best self to some people around me. Fortunately I am lucky to have an incredible support system, and the friends I have opened up to have been amazing. On top of that I’ve recently gotten amazing news regarding my day job and charity work.
That’s the insidious thing about depression though, you can have a million positives and yet a handful of negatives will just weigh you down. It’s dumb, and flies in the face of all logic, and I know that, but it still sucks.
That’s what led to all of this in the first place. I started getting honest with myself. Then I started getting public with it. Then people took notice. Now I have some sort of platform and a message to broadcast. With all that, why should you listen to me if I don’t practice what I preach?
So, yeah. I’m hurting, but I’m healing. It takes time, but I know I’ll be okay, and I want you to know that whatever you’re going through you’ll be okay too.
Positive Masculine Achievement 